hajnrih Posted September 18, 2014 Share Posted September 18, 2014 Update........ Although my PROVEN SYSTEM is in FULL THROTTLE i am experiencing a lot of turbulence tonight. Wednesday 9:35 pm and kids are sleeping. Wife is in bed relaxing and I am sitting here in my living room thinking about BDBA again paying me at 9'dollars a spin! Week one has been easy until this moment. I guess it will take some time to flush out the memories of gambling. It is so hard to just watch the clock tick. I have said it over and over again that time is not a gamblers friend. I won't gamble tonight because I am in control. But even a plane in full flight can experience severe turbulence. I guess I just have to weather this storm tonight. I'll be as honest as I can be. If I was able to deposit in a MG/NT casino, i may not have able to keep control. Exclusions are showing their true value to me tonight. Wish I was sleepy. I'll be up till 3am for sure as usual. What a long night this isngoing to be! PROVEN SYSTEM. Being seriously tested tonight. Must respect. Only way. I can not fail it or myself. I must be strong. I must stay strong. The fire inside me can not win. How about playing a few rounds on Call Of Duty. Some shooting always relaxes me cocopop3011 and ValDes 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cocopop3011 Posted September 18, 2014 Share Posted September 18, 2014 How about playing a few rounds on Call Of Duty. Some shooting always relaxes me Haha! Great way to relieve some stress. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Johnnygotthebone Posted September 18, 2014 Author Share Posted September 18, 2014 Hope you managed to resist the temptation after all. Hey ValDes. It was rough last night man. Really rough. But I did it. Did not play anything. Today is easier. Very proud of myself. A few days left. Gotta keep that in mind! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ValDes Posted September 18, 2014 Share Posted September 18, 2014 Hey ValDes. It was rough last night man. Really rough. But I did it. Did not play anything. Today is easier. Very proud of myself. A few days left. Gotta keep that in mind! I am proud of you too! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ValDes Posted September 18, 2014 Share Posted September 18, 2014 How about playing a few rounds on Call Of Duty. Some shooting always relaxes me Haha! Great way to relieve some stress. Personally, prefer Counter Strike, but love COD as well! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Luciana Posted September 18, 2014 Share Posted September 18, 2014 Personally, prefer Counter Strike, but love COD as well! Guru I never saw you as a gamer, outside slots Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ValDes Posted September 18, 2014 Share Posted September 18, 2014 Guru I never saw you as a gamer, outside slots Well, playing computer games is how it all began 22 years ago... Playing DOOM in a network with 3 other guys in the computer laboratory of one of the best schools in Bulgaria. This is how I met my first love - computers.... But let's not derail this topic as it is of extreme importance to Johnny. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Johnnygotthebone Posted September 18, 2014 Author Share Posted September 18, 2014 Excellent suggestion ValDes. I was going to ask you to send out some warnings Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hajnrih Posted September 18, 2014 Share Posted September 18, 2014 Personally, prefer Counter Strike, but love COD as well! How about a AG CS 1.6 server so we can all let off some steam. Sorry for the post Johnny. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Johnnygotthebone Posted September 18, 2014 Author Share Posted September 18, 2014 Will updating to ios8 cause my external non Certified external iphone battery cases to stop working? PROVEN SYSTEM can not afford that Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Johnnygotthebone Posted September 18, 2014 Author Share Posted September 18, 2014 Update....... solid as a rock. No urge what so ever to play. Looking forward to Monday. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hajnrih Posted September 18, 2014 Share Posted September 18, 2014 Just find something to fill the time and you'll be OK Johnny. How about doing something productive and writing some reviews. You get to write about your favorite gambling and earn some small deposit money by the way. I would like to read some of your experiences in the casinos. Awena 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ValDes Posted September 18, 2014 Share Posted September 18, 2014 Just find something to fill the time and you'll be OK Johnny. How about doing something productive and writing some reviews. You get to write about your favorite gambling and earn some small deposit money by the way. I would like to read some of your experiences in the casinos. Nope! I could live with Johnny's @!$!@$!@ system, but with him being a writer here?! I don't think so. Awena 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hajnrih Posted September 18, 2014 Share Posted September 18, 2014 Nope! I could live with Johnny's @!$!@$!@ system, but with him being a writer here?! I don't think so. Come on Val Give the guy a chance Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Johnnygotthebone Posted September 18, 2014 Author Share Posted September 18, 2014 If I really said what I wanted to about casinos. Automatic banning! Better I stay quiet Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Johnnygotthebone Posted September 18, 2014 Author Share Posted September 18, 2014 But I will say this..... Find an honest casino. Do your research. Read the TERMS! Carefully. Ask questions. There are many honest and dishonest casinos online. Make sure you pick one that suits your style. Otherwise you will not be happy. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Johnnygotthebone Posted September 18, 2014 Author Share Posted September 18, 2014 Nope! I could live with Johnny's @!$!@$!@ system, but with him being a writer here?! I don't think so. ValDes. Why is PROVEN SYSTEM insulted by you? You write it like this \>%<\< system? May I ask why? It's obviously working for me and a few others who have taken the right steps to control their gaming life. I am just curious to know why you feel that it is necessary to do that? Just curious. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Johnnygotthebone Posted September 19, 2014 Author Share Posted September 19, 2014 Here are some import my factors for PROVEN SYSTEM as it in FULL THROTTLE.... Needed to be understood..... More will come as it is being respected...... TIME.... Is not my friend. The hours are long. Hour to hour is slow. Sometimes it seems like it isn't moving. Slowly looking forward to MONDAY is taking it's toll on my patience. It seems like I am just standing in the middle of the ocean with no one in sight. Time will not help. As time goes by, I count the hours until I will play again. FORGET....thinking about the past is taking it's toll on me. The winning feeling is no longer inside my body. The adreneline rush has gone away. There are no more daily screen shots of big wins. There are no more auto spins. There is nothing. A dark room with no window is better than this. Forgetting the past must happen. The past is haunting me. The good times and the bad. The sounds are no longer ringing in my ears. My eyes are not hurting anymore. It's all changing but is still present in my thoughts. FILL.... Filling the hours during the day is not the same during the night. Nights are long. Night do not pass. I have my family to fill a lot of my time. Without wanting to, they are helping me fill the hours. When they are not with me, I am alone. I try to fill the remaining hours with something to make me happy. TOUGH.... I am being hard on myself. I am literally telling myself to stop. To stop being stupid. To stop being sick. To grow up and be a man. Act like a man. Be the best at everything. Don't throw your life away again. Don't be stupid. You have too much to lose. Respect the modules and have fun. Enjoy it. Have fun and don't obsess. Sometimes I hate myself. RELAX.... Appreciate what you have and find pleasure in those things. Enjoy your family. Think about them while you look at the 1200 pictures on the iphone of your kids. Put a movie that is interesting. Smoke less. Try and sleep. Find comfort wherever it is. Listen to soft music. Relax the brain. Stop thinking. Be cool. Everything will be ok. Sure I will play again. What difference does it make if it's today or 3 days from now? Find a way to relax. A way to make the fire relax. Keep the fire down and I shall have my happiness. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ValDes Posted September 19, 2014 Share Posted September 19, 2014 ValDes. Why is PROVEN SYSTEM insulted by you? You write it like this \>% It's obviously working for me and a few others who have taken the right steps to control their gaming life. I am just curious to know why you feel that it is necessary to do that? Just curious. Because I don't like the name you have chosen for describing your battle to put gambling under control! That is why! What on earth is "proven system" has to do in common with problem gambling? Why not naming is "My fight with problem gambling" instead? Awena 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Johnnygotthebone Posted September 19, 2014 Author Share Posted September 19, 2014 Fair enough. I have my reasons for name selection. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ValDes Posted September 19, 2014 Share Posted September 19, 2014 Fair enough. I have my reasons for name selection. So do I. People coming here see this tricky name "proven system" and don't have a clue that it actually concerns problem gambling. I will really appreciate if you change it to something more relevant to the subject. Call it "Fighting with compulsive gambling - my proven system" for example... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Johnnygotthebone Posted September 19, 2014 Author Share Posted September 19, 2014 I see where you're coming from ValDes. First line of this post is clear...... PROVEN SYSTEM: A method for a life long gambler to maintain control of his addiction. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Johnnygotthebone Posted September 19, 2014 Author Share Posted September 19, 2014 All BS aside. Please someone explain to me how to make these hours pass! I am dying. I dunno how to continue not playing. I am in trouble today. I am weak. I don't have the energy to fight. I want to deposit and play. RTG is even appealing. I am falling. I feel it! How can I make time pass until 4pm (4 hours). I hate feeling this way. I don't want it. I am losing control. I don't want to lose control. I don't wanna give in to the fire inside. Someone please tell me what to do. Please.... I don't wanna give in no have to respect what i have been preaching. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ValDes Posted September 19, 2014 Share Posted September 19, 2014 All BS aside. Please someone explain to me how to make these hours pass! I am dying. I dunno how to continue not playing. I am in trouble today. I am weak. I don't have the energy to fight. I want to deposit and play. RTG is even appealing. I am falling. I feel it! How can I make time pass until 4pm (4 hours). I hate feeling this way. I don't want it. I am losing control. I don't want to lose control. I don't wanna give in to the fire inside. Someone please tell me what to do. Please.... I don't wanna give in no have to respect what i have been preaching. Just turn back to this thread and read it from the beginning. Reading your own thoughts and feelings might help you resist the burning temptation. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ValDes Posted September 19, 2014 Share Posted September 19, 2014 I see where you're coming from ValDes. First line of this post is clear...... PROVEN SYSTEM: A method for a life long gambler to maintain control of his addiction. So, I can change the title then and make it ''Johnny's Proven System: A method for a life long gambler to maintain control of his addition''? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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