It's been 4 years and I'm interested to know if you managed to overcome all the difficulties that arose in you due to your gambling addiction.
Personally, I had a few situations where I lost more than I could afford, but I mastered myself in time and stopped playing for a while. At the same time, I turned to a psychologist to discuss my motivation. This has helped me find a few more hobbies that I enjoy and I hardly gamble now.
I hope you are well, your family is happy, and you, even if you play sometimes, do it for fun and without much risk.