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A few years ago I read an article that mentioned using a system for roulette called the Martingale system for winning. So I thought to myself good, now I can make some decent money and pay off my student loan. Initially I won reasonable sums of money with but then I started running into losses. I used two credit cards to play and soon maxed them both out. I then started to think how to make the money back. So I started working again earning a bit here and there. I then had a reasonably good run up to the point where I had 500 GBP in cash. I decided to play on with the live casino at roulette and ended up losing it all. Now the problem is that I have virtually nothing left, and what the worst thing about it is that my wife divorced me and since then I haven't been able to make maintainance payments for my son because of losing. I think I am addicted to gambling because every time I start thinking every time when I try to think how am I going to get the money I always start thinking playing this system again online with small stakes and a small deposit. Although recently I noticed that I am starting to overcome it because I am not going in any more. The worst thing about it though is that I feel absolutely terrible about the losses because I know I should have given the money to my wife. And what really gets me down is that on my sons 6th birthday the most I can afford is a phone call to wish him happy birthday but that is all. I already have a psychiatrist who I see from time to time. But the urge for me to play again and the oh but if only I had the money syndrome is still there everyday when I am at work and wherever I am. I just don't know what to do because I feel that really when I think about it that I have really ruined my chances of becoming rich by fairing so badly with it and having no money left and ruining my chances of winning any decent money. And I couldn't help but blame it on my now ex-wife because of her telling me that the money wasn't enough. And I feel that I have really ruined the relationship and yet I still want all the best things for her and my son. So this is my story and I just wanted to share it as a warning to others of what can happen when your heart overcomes the mind and ruins you by leading you into the game and trying to win big and get rich quickly by gambling. The worst thing about it though really is that I have no idea about what to do and often I feel suicidal and have to consciously stop myself doing anything to myself because of my losses. I know I am not the only person who is poor but I find it very depressing that I cannot afford what others can because of my difficulty in overcoming the habit. I came to realize also that the information was misleading because it stated that it required 250 GBP to start and yet this is simply not the truth because you really need more than that to with the system I think because the house is keeping you believing that you can when all the time the house has the edge over you because of the zero in the game being a factor in the odds. Any suggestions as to what I should do next would be very much appreciated. I have already called my ex-wife and apologized and told her that I will do my best to get some money to her soon.